♥life of missy♥

All by myself

2011-09-22T00:48:00.001+08:00

For these few months, I felt as if I've been all by myself.

It seems tat this period is gonna end, I still feels tat I've been facing all by myself.

I dare not ask or question.. It will nv hav a good ending when questions been asked.

I'm not depressed jus disappointed.

I can jus say, tats the way he is! I chose him. I can't blame anyone.

Did you?

2011-09-11T00:44:00.001+08:00

其实，当你在做某些事时，你会想到我吗？

我怀疑，我想，你没有吧！

My pooh bears

2011-09-10T01:17:00.001+08:00

Anniversary

2011-09-10T01:14:00.001+08:00

What is exactly anniversary meant to you? Is it jus because we are married and with 2 kids so you think that's waste of time to celebrate the anniversary or not necessary?

At first, I thought it is okay that we dun celebrate. But at the same time I'm asking myself, there's still so many years down the road. Am I really okay that there's no celebration for our anniversary? Of course, if he do not wish to celebrate, I'll not force him.

But but but, i started to feels unhappy and really jealous when he told me that there's an anniversary celebrate with his colleagues for working 2 years in the company.

So this anniversary is important to you?

Ok fine, maybe is because your colleague 'jio' you so you dun wan to spoil their mood and agreed to join the celebration. I just feels unhappy and jealous tat you make an effort to think where to go, what to eat, etc.

I'm not a materialistic person. I dun need any flowers, expensive gifts to celebrate our anniversary. It could be just a nice dinner together, chit chat session, a visit to Sentosa, jus more quiet time for the two of us. I dun think this is a difficult task for you!

I'm a normal girl afterall. I need more attention and cares too... But I dun feels that you understand that.

Good in hiding

2011-09-07T23:32:00.001+08:00

People think that I'm happy and positive. Actually deep down in me, I doesn't feels the way you think I am.

My Happy Pills

2011-05-01T00:08:00.003+08:00

Nowadays, the happy pills that keep my everyday with a little of happiness are:-

1. My Baobei Iain
2. Jokes/ incident that could happen during work

Is this too much to ask for? Especially from you!

2011-04-30T23:54:00.005+08:00

I do not know if I am being too greedy to ask them from you.

You are really being a great one as you handle most of the things for the family.

But some how, some times, I hope you can give me slightly more besides all these things.

I no long feels those loves which were once surrounding around me, cares and concerns, times, eye contact.

At times, I really miss those hugs and kisses from you. But they are hardly be seen these days.

Maybe you are really jus too tire and stress over work and family.

10 Sentences

2011-04-30T23:45:00.005+08:00

How I wish we have more conversation. Talk with laughters.

I would say, it only happens when there friends around.

During the weekdays when we have to work, I think we hardly talks more than 10 sentences in a day.

Morning, when we travel to work, you drive and I'll fall aslp behind.

During working hours, you nv call or sms me as you are busy with work.

Evening, when we travel back home, you drive and I'll either pressing the phone or looking at the vehicles outside.

I don't know if you have noticed, there are times I tried to create some conversation with you. But your replies are usually so short and sweet that the conversation ends there.

All these while

2011-04-30T23:24:00.003+08:00

Till yesterday, then I gets to know how stress you were for the family.
You nv talks much about it. Either you do not wish me to get worry or you jus think it's actually useless even if you talks about it.

I jus feels that it's kinda unfair to me when you says I have been bothering you when you stress up in work. Normally, you nv drop me a call (don't ever think about msg) unless you can goes off on time. When it's about time to knock off from work and I don't receive any calls or msg, I will either call you or drop u a msg asking like 'Are you ready to go?' or 'What time are you leaving'. But, all these things are 'bothering' to you. Yah, there are times that I have really bad attitude when I call you. I'm sorry, I jus gets frustrated when I couldn't gets you. I didn't know you are busy.

Blogging this out doesn't means that you are wrong and I'm the innocent one. I jus want to express it out how I feels because I do not want to talk or discuss about it with anyone.

Silent Mode

2011-04-30T23:08:00.003+08:00

Practice the 'Talk Less, Wrong Less' scheme.
From today onwards, I'm going to keep reminding myself to talk lesser to prevent any unhappiness.

Talk when necessary and shall not give any nonsenses.

Of course I can’t be totally in ‘silent mode’ but talk lesser.

To him, most of the words speak out from me are nonsenses and childish.

Seriously, I’m so speechless and upset to hear such comments from him.

Perhaps, what he says is true.

I wish it's all dream

2011-04-29T21:59:00.003+08:00

Today is my worst day of my life ever...
It hurts jus like when I were a child, being beaten and dislike by my mother.
The same feeling is back...

So pain till it hurts so much.

Teach me how

2011-04-25T15:28:00.002+08:00

Can someone please tell me how to keep myself awake and concentrates better in work???

I'm so sleepy~~~

Turning 2 years old

2011-04-23T23:49:00.007+08:00

Next Sunday is our darling Iain's 2 years old birthday!
1st of May.

I've planned to organise a small celebrate for him in school on the coming Friday (29 Apr)

Leave has applied and approved!!!

The grandma is going to ask her collegue to prepare a cake with cars design on it for the celebration in school.

I hope Iain will have happy 2nd birthday in school with all the teachers and friends in school.

A separate celebration will be organise on the actual day with the whole family out for dinner. I'm looking forward.

FREE Longchamp Bag

2011-04-23T23:37:00.003+08:00

I so wanna sign up the Maybank credit card! Coz they are giving out FREE Longchamp bag!!!

I want it!

They are giving away the small size which I wanted so long ago!

I were planning to get myself one when I'm going to HongKong on this coming May.

If the FREE bag is still available, I'm gonna sign up and get it.

Hahahaha... Is this considered 'auntie' act???

Forced 'KISS'

2011-04-23T23:24:00.003+08:00

Today, a SMRT Cab 'kissed' our car's right cheek!

It wasn't very serious. However, we still spent about 3 hours to make the decision to handle this accident.

We are not in the wrong so we decided to claim the taxi driver.

I HATE accident. Makes me take public transport to work.

23 Apr 2011

2011-04-23T23:08:00.003+08:00

Met up with Glynis and XueHwa for lunch at Sushi-Tei.

Bought Iain along.

I always find that the 3 of us really do not have the time to spend longer together for shopping and chit-chatting.

I miss those days!

Hope everything will gets better

2011-04-22T09:22:00.005+08:00

What is wrong with us?

We seems to be quarrel everyweek.

It seems that whatever I said sound wrong to you.

Did I really said something wrong?

I tried to sound nice and talk less (thought I will get wrong less too).

Couple of time, our conversation ended with quarrel.

You say you are under stress now. Okay, I understand.
But when ever we ended our conversation with quarrel, I gets really emotional.

I do not want all these because it will affect the little one inside.
I do not want him to be a unhappy baby.

I really hope this will end soon... No more quarrel, please!